Chosen

I've been reading this blog today: http://bry-bryantsblog.blogspot.co.uk/. The blogger is part of the C22 group (slightly different to the 11,22 group).

I'm not comparing our - my - experiences and emotions to hers. I can't even imagine.

But reading it, I thought, "it's ok". "It's ok that I'm not ok with this. It doesn't make me a 'bad' Christian."

I don't think the translocation came from God. I believe He can help me with it - He has already helped me with it, so much. But from him? No. He didn't give me this. It's evil that attacks our family. That's how I see it; that's how I relate to it.

And I will respond to it how the Bible teaches me to respond to evil - with love.

I don't know what that looks like. I'm not sure if I'm doing it - I try to do it... I think the intention of doing it will pretty much get me there and I shouldn't worry too much about what it looks like.

Jesus heals.

He didn't choose this for me.

But I am chosen, because of it... I see His love in it, so much, so often, and in so many different ways. I also see a lot of grief. The things that bring us most beauty also bring us most pain. The translocation is truly a blessing in so many ways. But does that make it a good thing? No, and that's ok.

I thank the Lord for the journey.